There is so much that I did not write about when I decided to share this story.  I had wanted to write about my experience with John for years.  I knew that it would run long and that’s why I decided to do a series on “The Frank Diary of Anna”.  More than one person asked for me to put this in Kindle format, so I did and here it is.

There are lots of memories, experiences, and people that I omitted from this account.  I truly believe that there is enough to this John story to fill a book.  But it would take a lot of time to do.  It would mean contacting people from his past to get their memories and thoughts, research that I’m not too sure that I am willing to invest the time in.  It’s still a very emotional story for me to tell.  There are still parts that I hold close to me and don’t feel the need to share.

I was amazed at the number of people who I did not know that contacted me with in the first few days of this blog going live on my page.  If only he realized how many people’s lives he touched.  How many people still love him and think of him maybe that would mean something to him.  But sadly a life of drugs doesn’t usually lead to sunshine and rainbows.  He wasn’t cast out on his own with no hope of redemption.  Lots of people have tried to help him.  I am more than confident that in the years that we have been apart he has had ample opportunity for change.  But he has allowed himself to be swallowed up by his drug use.

His story isn’t an unusual story.  That’s why I think people could relate to a book about his life.  But it’s much too sad of a story for me to spend any more time on.  But I welcome you to share your memories of John with me.  Who knows maybe one day I’ll find the courage to really look at what happened to him.  Maybe your memories will help me to do that.

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