Aging, Doctors, Pills, and Death

Aging I have found to be inconvenient. I don’t have the energy I use to have and I think we can all look at the pictures and see I ain’t what I use to be.  I have high blood pressure, high cholesterol,allergies, anxiety, atrial fibrillation, and recently was told “has anyone every told you that you have a heart murmur.” and let’s not even talk about the various aches and pains.

I’m on digoxin, Diovan/hct, Tekturna, Crestor, Claritin, Prilosec OTC, alprazolam, atenolol, and Pradaxa. All chemicals, all with side effects. Yet I keep swallowing them down every day, because the doctor says to. The Pradaxa and atenolol are new.  Atenolol for the a.fib and Pradaxa a blood thinner. With a atrial fibrillation you are more likely to develop a blood clot and have a stroke when your heart goes out of rhythm. Just something else to worry about along with slicing my finger while I’m doing something in the kitchen and bleeding to death because of the blood thinner.

Honestly, there are days when I think I just need to get in my car and take myself to the nearest emergency room.

But I say to myself, “Why complain?” I’m really not bad off, most days I feel just fine.  I just need to get this heart rhythm problem back on track and then all will be well with the world.  I know lots of people that are a lot worse off than I am. Heart failure, cancer, all sorts of thinks that affect your day to day life everyday.

I have a friend who has cancer and other medical issues. We aren’t particularly close. He was a friend of my ex-husband.  His name popped up on Facebook and I sent him a friend request and he accepted. We talked briefly about the past and settled into a normal Facebook friendship.

I don’t think he realizes what an inspiration he is to me. His post make me stop and think. He’s deep, serious, silly, and irreverent.  He’s a real person. I don’t think he tries to be deep, serious, silly or irreverent.  That’s just who he is and that’s how he comes across. You have to admit being honest with who you are is a very good characteristic.

I think someone who can look death in the face and laugh even though they may be scared beyond belief is an inspiration. We all will have to face it eventually. It comes quickly for some and more slowly for others.

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