I’ve been standing at this crossroads for some time now. In the past, every time I start to take a small step, something stops me. But for the past several months I’ve been walking along this new path, I’m comfortable on it and I think I’m ready now to share it.
I can longer align myself with any organized Christian church. I’ve felt this way for years, but I’m now ready to admit it. I’ve always loved attending church. I like the rituals of singing hymns, listening to a sermon that starts my week off on a good note, I enjoy the company of others who are there for the same things. What turns me off is the politics of it all. Bringing in secular politics and opinions. Spewing them from the pulpit and dominating the conversations afterwards.
It seems that every time I log on to the internet there are so many groups that label themselves as “Christian” spewing hatred, condemnation, and intolerance. Forwarded emails from well intended family and friends filling my email box with the same rhetoric. It has turned me away.
While standing at this crossroad, I’ve also come to another conclusion. If the teachings in the Bible are suppose to be true as they are being presented in this day and age, then I can no longer accept those teaching either.
I guess what I’m saying is that I have come to the decision that I am agnostic. If this offends you, I sincerely apologize. That is not my intention. I could explain to you in detail how I came to this decision. But a lot of it is based on opinions and other things that I have read and researched. I’m not here to convince any one to believe any differently than they do. I respect everyone’s right to believe or follow what ever teaching they chose.
If you are one of the hate spewing, intolerant, condemning Christians that are so popular these days, I would hope you would just quietly delete me from your friends list and refuse to read my blog. If you want to pray for me that’s your right to do so. But believe me I have prayed on this for months and this is where I am.