I have been on a diet for nearly eight weeks. I’ve cut calories, salt, fat, sugar. I’ve done pretty well. Extremely well I think! Until this week that is. It hasn’t been awful, but I’m starting to see little chinks popping up in my day to day life. I know I’ve got to get a handle on it quickly or I will be right back where I started at the end of February.
This week the doughnut stops have drew me in twice. Both mornings I started out eating my homemade breakfast muffin. It is tasty and filling. I’m not hungry when I finish it. But for some reason this week I’ve talked myself into stopping not once, but two times!
The first time was Monday. I had to stop at the doctor’s office on the way in for blood work. The blood work required me to fast the night before. I warmed up my breakfast muffin before I left, wrapped it in foil so that it would stay warm. When I left the doctor’s office I ate my breakfast muffin and finished my water. The trouble was I was really thirsty. So I stopped to get a bottle of water. I was only about 10 minutes from work and could have filled my bottle there. But I stopped and not only got a bottle of water, but also a pig in the blanket and a blueberry donut. By the time I got to work I felt ill. Too much food.
This morning, Thursday, I stopped at the post office to get our mail. I stop on Thursdays because I don’t have to be to work until 9:00 on Thursdays and I’m not rushed. Yes I had my breakfast muffin on the way in. But then I told myself, “You won’t get to eat until late today. You’ll be starving. Just stop and get something. It won’t hurt anything.” So I stopped and got another blueberry donut and then thought “What the hell!” and got a glazed doughnut too.
So now I sit at my desk feeling physically sick to my stomach and stuffed. Why oh why oh why did I let myself stop? It was dumb and I know I have sabotaged myself. I think it all stared with making that whole wheat bread this weekend. I don’t need all these carbs. But there really isn’t anything better than hot buttered bread fresh from the oven.
So back on the wagon I jump. It was just a little stumble in the road I tell myself. I just didn’t have enough healthy snacks around my house this week. Tomorrow I will go to Central Market and stock up on some fruits and veggies. After all tomorrow is a brand new day.